Christmas surprise

viviancui

When Christmas in 2003,a surprise happened on my life. Because my English is so poor, I think I can’t clear up what I want to say. But it's most important that this composition is from my heart. I think after close my eyes and stop talking the true feeling can surmount the different language and the different culture obstacles. I will never forget. "hi"—— This is a start. No reasons for the crazy night. The wine is a gulf. It let me enter a warm cloud and mist. His lip and thorax melts my isolation. Nobody knows the cold for a write girl in the deep night for a long time. I don't like pour out my heart. All that stays with myself. The soul goes into exile. I just smile and silence. "We can't speak, we can feel in heart."—— "I'm not a open girl."—— The interchange from soul is what I want. Whatever friendly or love or sex. I'm so serious for that. When I went there to see him. I felt so tense. I wound rather to be friends with him serious than to be lover careless. Now I'm hearing the violin music, my heart so clean. I remember he side “you so sweet”. I was shy and happy. When I read the newspaper for him, I so admiration. I do my best to try to see what he does and what he thinks. The experience is a wealth for him. I think that is free from passion and let him young forever. It’s pity that I can’t read all the words in that paper, but I can see his dream, struggle, free and his tender feeling from deep heart. There are warm tears and memories. There are the cheery blossom fly in the wind and the love when a young boy. That girl or that boy. Tear-stained in the sun sad. They hope grow up quickly And mother listens to them. The dog comes and around. That woman or that man. Run in the night apathetic. They hops grow old slowly And people listen to them. The song comes and around. I don’t know what’s time. Can you tell me? I can write in Chinese to affect many people, but I can’t affect him in English. When I was a little girl, I liked reading so much. I try to watch this world in different way. All the things about emotion are serious as a Chinese girl. In my opinion the true friendly is so better than casual love. When I grow up, I saw many love and money deal. I still keep my clean. Maybe I’m not a modern woman; I’m just an inflexible girl. Love is a holy land in my heart. Could I tell you more I love a man more I afraid look at him? You know, let two people to meet is easy. But let two heart to love is so hard. So two soul drift aimlessly in the world as if in contact as if not. Could I tell you I will never forget your eyes? It let me forget the isolation. I want sent a gift to him. I will pray the happiness and safe and secure all around him whatever happy or suffering today and every tomorrow. My schuldt, please let my love to be an amulet for you. I hope you can meet a right woman who has a good heart like you. You can share the time together. Please take my love to write your memoir . Please remember a girl who gives her heart to you and thinking of you in the distance. “My name is Vivian, please remember me!”——