Dear Marylu,
Thank you so much for your cards and the encouraging words to me. I like them so much! It's so meaningful to me. You know, I was depressed and cried almost all day long. I just felt it's unfair to me. No one cares for me! I was so lonely. I couldn't find the meaning of my life. I was really depressed until I saw your card to me----learn to be grateful.
I was grateful, to God , and to many people who love me. But after reading your card, I realised how limited my gratefulness is. I never know I need to be grateful to the one who hurt me, I never know I need to be grateful to the one who deserted me!!!
Thank you so much! That's a great lesson to me! Now I am grateful, to the one who redeemed me by his blood, to the one who peomised me he will love me forever!
marylu!谢谢你!看到你的帖子,我的眼泪又一次流了下来。今天是我的生日,我本该高高兴兴才对。可我一早起来就特别难过。 真的。 早晨我接到爸爸的电话。他问我,那个手机是不是我让妈妈寄给我了,因为他找不到了。我说是。 我知道,爸妈又吵架,可能打架了。因为今天是星期日,如果他们好好的话,爸爸就不会打电话问我,直接问妈妈就好了。即使不因为这个,我也能感觉的出来,爸爸和妈妈都不是那种很会掩饰的人,听声音就知道了。爸爸可能根本不记得我的生日了,一句也没提,就挂了电话。他打电话时我还在睡梦中,室友叫我接电话时我还以为是家人或朋友祝贺我生日的,没想到。。。
然后我起来,去教会。路上就一直在想,上帝对我太不公平了。要不就是我要的太多了吧。坐在公共汽车上,我就在跟神哭诉,我说神你对我太不公平!
我就是很难过,很孤单。我在想,教会给我的朋友开的那个surprising Party。可没有人知道我的生日。聚会完了我一个人去了市区。我好希望我在美国的那个朋友给我打个电话,可是没有。 我好想她!真的特别特别想她!!!我等到一点多,没有,就是没希望了,她那边已经是凌晨了。我逛街时还给她买了生日礼物。她是11月份的生日。买完了自己觉得好凄惨,我自己的生日,我却在给别人买生日礼物!可我真的好想好想她,想念她的爱像大海向我扑过来的那种感觉。
逛街逛到下午4点多,实在饿的不行,就去吃肯德鸡。人很少,我一个人坐在大玻璃窗边,狼吞虎咽的吃着汉堡。。。
不过我记得约拿的家的弟兄姐妹要给我过生日的。所以晚上赶紧来上网。看到了你们的礼物和鼓励,我真的很高兴,很满足。我知道神是爱我的。我知道,他是多么爱我。。。